Wife, mommy, diabetic....my sanity is missing!!!

This week is going to be a long one. I waved my husband away to the sandbox for a second time. The first time wasn't that hard. I had my family and his family to keep me calm. This time I'm almost 3,000 miles away from our families. That's the hard part. My daughter will be out here mid April. My mom will be staying a week or two and then all of them are flying out for the girls spring break. For those that don't know, my grandma, who happens to be 64 years old, adopted 3 girls from a bad home. They are amazing and I couldn't imagine not having them in my family. The good thing are this deployment is that we will pay down a lot of our bills. And it rained. Yes, I'm happy that it rained on his leave day. Why? Because everytime he left for anything Army related, it has rained. That's our sign. If it hadn't have rained, then I'd be a total basketcase.


My best friend's husband is coming home later this week. I'm uberly excited for her. I see the love that they have for each other and I looked at my husband and I. We are truly blessed to have the greatest men in our lives.


My house is officially in order. McKenzie's room is all done and decorated for her arrival. I decided to put Tinkerbell decals as a border around her walls. I think she will love it.


I'm also toying with the option of being a SAHM(stay at home mom). We can afford it. That's not the issue. I need to focus on school 100%. Plus the cost of daycare for my husband's income bracket would cut into the amount I would be possibly be earning. There is a job fair Friday that I'm going to go to and see what's out there. I'm also afraid of putting my daughter into daycare. The first 2 years of her life she has been watched by family while I worked. A friend I met here, Tia, has talked with me about it. She's got a great head on her shoulders.


My diabetes has been crazy out of control. I stopped wearing my pods only cause my husband would knock them off. I'm going to start back on them today. It took me forever to get a decent appointment time to see someone. Endocrinology Clinic at Madigan was saying a month from now. Fuck that. I worked my ass off to get something sooner. Now I have an appoint on April 5th. I need to get this together.


All in all, I'm going to survive this deployment. Come hell or high water, I will survive.

I haven't blogged in a while cause J is gearing up for a deployment. That alone scares me. His job now is alot more dangerous than it was when he deployed in 2007. He likes to keep me informed but sometimes I think he's keeping me TOO informed, ya know? He has nightmares. He had them last time he left and when he was home on R&R. Last night I think he had one. I was holding him, next thing I know I was awaken by the feeling of my pod being ripped off my thigh. I don't ask about the dreams cause I know what they're about. The other morning I woke before him and told him I was going to watch TV in the living room. These were his words: "Don't leave. They will get me."

We have been arguing over petty stuff. I hate he's leaving but I have to remember that it's part of the reason why we have financial stability. Not to mention the best healthcare there is. And for this, I can't thank my husband enough for choosing to go active.

A factory in my hometown of Dyersburg, TN shut down. Over 600 people are losing their jobs. I can't imagine going through that and having my husband come home and tell me that his last check was the last. My prayers are with everyone that worked there.

The whole stress of this deployment is causing havoc on my glucose levels. I'm never under 200 unless I starve myself. Not happening. The stress is also causing me to eat more than I normally would. I've taken up walking to help with the stress and lowing my numbers. I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow to talk to my doctor about trying Symlin to help curb my appetite. I am also invited to try out Zumba with 2 other wives who are stationed here. That will be nice to try. Right now, I'm going to help my friend Treva change her blog background. She's a sweetheart and I love her dearly. She's given me so much advice as I have her. I'm blessed to have a few close friends (Andrea, Rain, Treva, Joy, Drea) to be there when I need something. I also have a few new friends from Twitter and a message board of military wives who I can talk to. Even if it's just to vent.

I have been so freaking busy that I haven't had the time to even think of writing a blog post or updating the D365 page on flicker.

Lets start with the moving. I'm officially jobless. It was somewhat bittersweet cause I know I had to quit in order to stay with my husband and our daughter. I visited Fort Lewis, WA for a little over a week. I LOVE it out there. Absolutely gorgeous. Well, when it's not raining. You can view Mount Rainer from every location on the base. We chose to find a place off base in Lakewood. I love our apartment. I't perfect for us and I love the furniture I picked out too. Of course, Jeremy didn't care what it looked like as long as he has a place to sleep and I have a place to cook LOL.

Now on to my diabetes stuffs. My levels have been extra wacky since I'm trying to plan a move and get everything set up. Soon as I touched down in Tennessee, I was planning on getting my bloodwork pulled for my A1C check. Since I've been on the pump for almost 3 months now, I wanted to see how much it helped me. Let me start by saying my A1C on Dec 1, 2009 was a 9.5. This one was a jaw dropping 7.1!!! I was uberly shocked as was my husband. We celebrated by having pizza for dinner. I've also been getting my medical records together for the move. I visited my family doctor that I've been seeing since 1999. My diagnosis date is November 16, 1999 and my fasting glucose level was 335 and my A1C was a whopping 15.1!!!! 15.1!!!!!!! Can't wait to get them officially in my hands so I can read more about this stuffs.

I'm going to have to leave my bebe McKenzie in Tennessee with her grandma. She'll be excited but i'm gonna miss her butt. My mom and her are going to fly out right before Jeremy deploys (ooops I left that out huh?).

About that deployment, the lovely hubs will be getting shipped off the Afghanistan in a few weeks. I'm not exactly sure how I feel about this. I'm gonna be in a new city and won't know anybody. Only time will tell......